And then throw a BBQ with all my favorite foods???!!!
Needless to say, I failed. Urgh, I had felt so strong and empowered by not even having a lick of of the delicious meal pictured above, but how could I say no to my dad's carne asada (google it! word's can't describe how amazingly delicious this dish is). Just look at that red, delicious, juicy piece of steak just waiting for me to devour like the dinosaur I was in my past life.
That's not all! Because even though I tried to eat an extremely small meal to not cause too much damage, everyone egged me on to just go with it. And I did. And it was delicious! Soooo I had the carne, I had the yellow rice with my mom's potato salad, tomato and onion salad (Courtesy of Chile), strawberry pound cake, cranberry muffin, ice cream. Now you must be thinking What the hell, Carol? Didn't you feel bad? and I say HECK NO, because right after that feast I had, 1/4 of a funnel cake (for the first time ever!!!) and pizza and then my sister bought me a BK whopper jr, and a diet coke (which wasn't diet. You hear that cashier??? I can TELL when its not diet!). And then I was done....
I had to start all over again, but then I had a really bad day because I argued with an old friend. I'm just tired of being nice. I think I'm just too complacent and I go with the flow, and I wished that I could be angry and show anger once in a while. Maybe people wouldn't stand me up, or flake out, or be super late when I want to see somebody. I just let everyone off too easy. I should be able to voice my opinion, but like I said, I'm very satisfied with letting things go. Instead, I reached for the fridge and popped in 2 cookies and some m&m's.....
So I started again :) You just gotta do it, it's a hard cleanse for a reason.
In better news: Since the beginning of July I've lost 10 pounds :D
I took this picture because I was so happy!
HW: 137
CW:126
GW1: 120
GW2:110
"It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop."
-Confucius
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